A little thing called Death

Death is such a leveler isn't it? No matter who you are or what you have been in life, at the end everything you have been is reduced to ashes.

Today I had the unfortunate experience of having to face a good friend who had just lost his father. The sheer pain and hurt on the faces of the grieved ones is so enormous that for a moment in your life everything seems dark. Watching your friends cry is an extremely painful ordeal, even more so when the cause for it is death. How could you possibly console someone when they say " I miss him and I cant believe he's gone forever and I shall never experience his love again".

In the middle of all this my friend says "When you fight with your parents you feel you hate them and can't tolerate them anymore! But only during a time like this do you truly know how you feel about them". What a damaging statement ain't it? Just for a moment wonder and ask yourself if you have been a good child to your parents, whether you have ever done something which if came to their knowledge would totally break their heart. I certainly have! As its so commonly said " You don't know the importance of something unless you no longer have it" Imagine for a moment how you would feel if someone you love truly was no longer there in your life, you could no longer see them smile or hear them laugh or have them pamper you in their own special way. How it would be if you could never hear their voice or never again feel their touch! Scary ain't it?

Life is short, spend most of it showing your true feelings for someone instead doing otherwise. You only get to live once, make sure when you are in that situation you know you have been the best you can be. Spread the love :)

This song is for my dear friend and his family. I really hope you can find the courage to recover from your loss.

The Travails of future planning

The past couple of weeks have taken a very interesting turn in terms of the constant talks of how everything is going to be couple of years from now academically. And as usual Maddy comes up with a solution for all my queries. She convinced me to take up GRE in order to do my MS abroad and thus we set out trying 2 figure out how to go about the whole process. The planning is really fun and tiring too. You have got to weigh the pros and cons of what you are getting into and chalk out a plan that will work out for the best.

These are the pro's I have come up with:

• Break from the misery that is Indian education
• A new experience and a chance to merge with a new culture
• Living alone and tending for myself.
• And the various mysteries and questions the future holds.
• A double degree implying better pay ala better future(hopefully).

And the cons are:

• Going to miss my family and Brun.
• The security and comfort of homeland and my people.
• My few good friends.
• The possibility that I will waste my time away and a shit load of my dads money along with it.

Till this point in my life I have hated having to think about the future and sit dwell on it but now it seems as though I have no other option. Over a space of a few days all I am talking about is the future and where it might be headed. Quite disturbing frankly but me being me, I am still excited going into a journey totally unprepared. There's some sort of future out there for everyone I believe. You might end up being everything you wanted, getting halfway there or end up dead within the next min. But heck you still have something to look forward. The beauty of uncertainty is amazing at times. Cant say the same while I am waiting for my stupid results to come out. Facing my first back :). Good luck to me!

Keep ya posted..

Now starts another journey

Ah! The freedom, the satisfaction. Soooooperrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

So its 3 AM and I have decided I should start blogging again. That's me! Make no sense to myself or anybody most times. But somehow off late I have this feeling that I am suppressing my natural instinct to talk about every darn thing around me. As anybody who knows me can confirm that has gotten me into a lot of trouble! And I mean seriously a lot. But heck, the worlds a free place and the internet is at my mercy and I have nothing substantial to be doing. Now I have the freedom to talk,bitch,whine,crib,criticize every thing I feel like having a say about. Just as my excitement starts to build up and I am grinning a weird grin my Labrador BRUNO is staring at me to check if I am stable. Amazing creature he is. For those of you who don't have pets you don't really no what you are missing out on. For those of you who do ain't it just the greatest? So this is me, back from my hibernation, hoping to keep it that way and keep the posts coming.

Wish me luck!